Sunday Journal: The Week Summer Plans Changed

Sparkles in the ER

Sparkles in the ER

We greeted June in the emergency room.

Emergency comes from the Latin meaning “to arise” or “bring to light”. The symbolic beauty of the word’s origin is obscured today. The word seems ugly to me and does not flow well off the tongue. I like words and I enjoy learning about words. In those moments as May faded into June and I guarded with prayer my daughter’s  rest in the ER; I thought about “emergency.” We certainly have a mystery on our hands…a mystery where truth needs to be brought out of darkness and into the light of understanding. Unfortunately, her mystery illness will require a specialist that she is scheduled to see next month. She

Sparkles and Boots

Sparkles and Boots

is still ill but responding to antibiotics. (A thousand times “thank you” to those who have offered prayers for her!!)

Oh, and about those antibiotics she is taking…this stuff is given to people with the plague or anthrax exposure! The side effects are just as horrible as her current symptoms. We won’t really know if she is feeling better for another seven days or so…

hanging out with Middle Boy

hanging out with Middle Boy

My plans for our summer courses are moot. I’m not sure what to do now. Sparkles thinks she could work on math and maybe one or two other things. For now our summer intensive Kentucky history is out. I had planned for us to visit all of the historical spots in town this month (most of them anyway…).

None of my plans have worked out this academic year. We have moved, suffered with pneumonia this winter and now Sparkle’s mystery illness. I’ve learned more about homeschooling and my children this year than in the past. Despite the year’s turbulence and even my own

cloud formation

cloud formation

spiritual lows, I feel God’s guiding hand on us. I do not know what the next six months will bring. Not a clue. I’m only starting to emerge from the spiritual funk that has kept me from church and talking with God. Honestly, I expected the events of this past week to knock me back into my doubts and darkness.

So far so good…and that seems kinda weird to me. I should be falling apart and totally freaking out. But right now I just accept and know that all moments pass through the hands of God. In acceptance I find rest and strength. And a little fear…

the new journal

the new journal

Many years ago I use to keep a journal. I would write poems and paint in my journal. Sometimes I would write out quotes or word phrases that I just needed to remember. All of my journals and art were thrown away by my mother many years ago. I cried and still haven’t forgiven her for throwing those away…and other things she thought I needed to grow out of. Today I started a new journal…I feel a personal renaissance is awakening. I used to be creative and I let others beat and ridicule that force out of me.

the rainbow

the rainbow

Maybe it is time to reclaim and make certain that my children fine their own creative force within… Also, for the month of June I will be posting a picture each day of grateful moments. I just need to remember right now.

Another huge change for me this week was dropping out of the TOS Review Crew. It was not an easy decision to make because I signed a contract with them and have an obligation to be part of the team. I have one review due next month and it will be my last. I also had another review due next month but since we hadn’t even started working on it I was taken off the list of

the boys learning to play pool

the boys learning to play pool

reviewers. The owner of the company allowed me to have access to his art curriculum anyway even though I will not be able to provide a review for him (thank you Mr. John Hofland of ArtAchieve).  So, if you happen to be in the market for an art curriculum then I encourage you to consider ArtAchieve. I am very touched by his generosity. I think a little art therapy is just what we may need to get through this summer of changes.

Linking up with: Weird unsocailaized Homeschoolers

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14 thoughts on “Sunday Journal: The Week Summer Plans Changed

  1. I hope you start to see improvement soon and are able to get answers once you meet with the specialist. It’s never fun to start any day in the ER. It sounds like you had a rough year but I often find once they are behind us those are the years I learned the most about us, remaining flexible and forging on.

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  2. So sorry your young one is having to go through this battle. Don’t pressure yourself at this time to get on board with summer work, just enjoy your child. We homeschooling parents forget we have the power to do what we need to do about scheduling. Hugs to you and your family. I’m visiting from Weekly Wrap Up.

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  3. I’m sorry that I’m behind on reading this. I’ll just pray extra hard now. Yea you, for hanging in there and letting go of some of your expectations for schooling (and life). Don’t forget to not be so hard on yourself. There are so many ways to learn and I think that art journaling is a splendid idea. Such a good way to work through stress and questions and just about everything!

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  4. I know what it feels like to have a season of darkness and still feel the pressure to make things happen. I don’t mean to sound cliche but sometimes the best we can do is to pray and then ‘let go and let God’. He will not forsake you. Praying and rooting for you and yours!

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  5. Audria, you certainly have had a rough year! Isn’t it strange how quickly our directions in life and homeschooling can change. I like your beautiful pictures each day as they help to focus in on what is important. I can’t imagine the loss of your journals! You have my deepest sympathy.

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  6. Beautiful rainbow! My family’s prayers continue for Sparkles. May you continue to feel God’s hand in your life. Don’t ever forget that you are a daughter of God. He knows you and hears your prayers. Lots of cyber hugs! A summer of creativity sounds perfect. 💛

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