This was supposed to be posted last week but I never really got a moment to get caught up. Littlest was feverish off and on for a couple of days and then the business of the Christmas season hit us. My children were all involved in this past weekend’s play and talent show at church keeping us busy with practicing. Also, we started working on all the yummy Christmas goodies and gifts for teachers and friends. I was completely stressed for my kids and far more anxious than they were (and they were the ones performing!). I may have indulged in a few of the chocolate treats and cocoa this week…but not too much. I am really trying not to turn to food when I feel stressed and try to recite Psalm 139 instead.
This week I worked on keeping a food log…and failed. Even though I didn’t always write down what I ate and when, I did end up thinking about why I was reaching for a snack. Most of the time just being conscious of what I was doing and asking myself if I was actually hungry was enough for me not to eat the snack. I usually got a glass of water instead. The past four days I’ve managed to actually meet my water goal!!! This week my goal is simply to reach my water intake goal everyday this coming week. I started marking a place on my planner each day with seven water drops and filling in each drop as I finish a glass of water. For some reason it makes me happy coloring in my water drops each day…
Anyway, I changed the title of this series from weight loss to life goals. This chapter is about making goals and the reasons for getting healthy. Weight loss is not my primary reason. I want to feel better and have more energy for my family. I want the pain in my hands to go away and wear my wedding band again. I want to teach my children good habits so they will hopefully make better choices than I did. These are my main goals and each week I set small goals to help me reach these larger goals for my life. So, I borrowed Ellie’s term “life goals” and put it in place of weight loss.
This weeks goals: Seven glasses of water each day and journal my food. Make a weight loss page for my planner as well as a place to chart my measurements.
I may not have been thinking clearly when I restarted this series so close to the feasting holiday season…I’m just not feeling the motivation right now.
My thoughts have wandered over the reasons for feasting this week as I’ve planned recipes for our special day of Thanksgiving. What is the point of feasting if you never fast? Jesus mentioned fasting a few times in the Bible but I’ve never heard a sermon about the topic. The Catholic church has seasons and rules for fasting that I faithfully followed in years past but never thought to ask, “Why?” Other than to really enjoy a feast I’m curious to learn why God teaches us to fast. Over the next few weeks I’ll study the topic and share what I discover.
This past year the kids and I have read several books about the Pilgrims, Native Americans, and the first Thanksgiving. We’ve watched Monumental and a few early American history documentaries. This year I am very aware of the meaning and history of the holiday and of my complete failure to really embrace it. I realized I’ve never sat at a table with my loved ones and told them why I am thankful. With this omission in mind I helped the kids to make thankful pine cone turkeys to place on the table. On each colorful tail feather I had them write down someone or something they were grateful for. For them it was a fun craft but their turkeys will be on the table during the feast…a reminder to be grateful. It’s a start.
I didn’t lose any weight this week but I didn’t gain either so I’m going to claim victory. This week’s chapter in my book was about not comparing my self to others. God made us all to be unique and in his eyes we are beautiful the way he made us to be…for who he made us to be. My worth…your worth is not in the number the scale shows but in the price God willingly paid for our redemption. Ellie also points out that I can’t make these healthy changes all at one. I need to make a goal, just one. Later, when this goal is a set habit then make a new goal. Since I’ve let a few habits slip I am going to work on reestablishing them. The first one I’ve decided to tackle is drinking more water. Since the weather turned cold I do not want to drink water. I haven’t been feeling very lethargic lately and I think it is because I’ve not drank enough water or exercised much. I’ll figure out a new exercise schedule later but for this week I am going to focus on water. I told my kids I needed help remembering to drink water and twice today my oldest brought me a glass of water to drink!
One of the questions in the devotional this week asked if I believed God loves me the way he created me…tough question. Intellectually I know that God loves me for who he created me to be. In my heart I feel unworthy…not worth God’s (or anyone’s) time. But, I am a work in progress…working on becoming a New Creation.
Welcome to the start of my new blogging series on adjusting to a healthier lifestyle. In June I embarked on a journey with some fellow bloggers to lose weight and learn about making healthier choices in food and exercise. Since then I have lost 11 pounds and gone from a size eighteen to a fourteen. I hope to continue to gradually lose more weight and learn to take better care of myself and my family. I’ll be using the book “Life’s Too Short to Eat Bad Cheese…Nutritional and Life Lessons God Teaches Us” by Ellie Marrandette. Ellie writes over at New Creation Ministries and I encourage you to click on over and get to know her a little. (She is one of my very favorite bloggers and I am blessed to call her friend.)
At this point in my weight-loss journey I need help keeping focused on my goal. The newness of the endeavor has completely worn off. I believe committing myself to a weekly post and working through Ellie’s book will not only help me stay focused but also motivated. I’ll work and pray through a chapter each week and then come back here to share my thoughts. I also plan to share any helpful recipes, goals, weight, progress and even when I fail.
The book suggested I choose a verse from Scripture to motivate me. A verse I could turn to when I feel discouraged, tempted or worthless. I grew up feeling like garbage…as disposable…worthless. Every rejected desire for love and security from my parents drove those feelings deeper until they became a part of me. I think these feeling will always be somewhat permanent. This rejection is the root of my emotional eating. A void I have tried to fill with many things over the years including food. I’ve referred to it as the black hole in my soul. So, I wanted to choose a verse to confront this worthlessness. Ellie says that “God doesn’t make JUNK!”
My verse…well four verses actually is Psalm 139:13-16
For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.
I will meditate on these verses this week. While my kids practice their penmanship I will write these words. I will write them until they are seared on my heart.
I promised to share my smoothie recipe with you. I specifically chose anti inflammatory foods for my smoothie to combat arthritis in my hands and other effects of inflammation in my body. First I soak a teaspoon of chia seeds in water for about five minutes in the bottom of my blender’s one serving cup. Once those have gelled I add two apple juice and ginger ice cubes. (My smoothie machine is terrible and cannot blend the ginger root well. It left ginger threads in my smoothie…yuck. I borrowed my friends juicer and juiced the entire ginger root with just enough apples to fill two ice cube trays.) I then add half a frozen banana, handful of frozen blueberries, handful of pineapple chunks, and stuff the top with as much spinach as I can get into the cup. I then fill the it about half way with almond, soy, coconut or cashew milk…which ever one happened to be on sale. Once blended it is a very dark purple-black color. My kids call it the “Black Death” which I think is really funny…in a warped sort of way. This smoothie is usually my breakfast and I noticed after drinking it for about two weeks the swelling in my knuckles decreased and I do not take ibuprofen nearly as much for pain. It’s not just food it’s medicine.
Thanks to Mrs. Melody my husband and I escaped the crew for a few hours and enjoyed an afternoon out by ourselves. We ate dinner and browsed a few shops. I also talked to my mother over the weekend and she told me to finish her Christmas shopping this week (I haven’t). I don’t mind selecting gifts for my husband and the kids from her but I find it a bit disheartening to pick out my own gift ( I usually just get curriculum). She also asked me to choose her gift for my brother. I’m having a real hard time with her request. Not only does he despise Christians (call me old fashioned but Christmas is a Christian holy day) but we haven’t even spoke in
over a year…he doesn’t want what I would pick out. I just cannot reconcile this and have decided to tell her she will have to take care of this one by herself.
We had a couple of half days of school this week. The weather was really nice the first part of the week so I sent them outside to play. Nice warm days are going to be hard to find as winter gets closer. I read on someone’s blog that they take the first day it snows off from school and have hot chocolate and
Are they done with school yet?
watch a holiday movie. Doesn’t that sound fun? I’m going to surprise the kids and do the same. According to the forecasters we could possibly enjoy that next week!!!
The crew is zipping along nicely in school. They are already at the half-way point in most of their studies. Since we still have more than half of the school year left we can slow some subjects down…maybe hop along a rabbit trail or two. Over the weekend the kids built a spectroscope from their science kit. They’ve had quite a bit of fun with it all week. I had a hard time focusing with it but bifocals would likely help. This week in science we started a book about Benjamin Franklin and electricity. I was so happy to see they had remembered so much about him and his many inventions from our American history studies.
Oldest needs a haircut
My favorite moments from homeschooling this week were from Oldest. He really does not like writing. This week he finished all of his writing assignments without being prompted. He also wrote on a couple of his papers “this writing made possible by Writing With Skill”. I used to make him rewrite the papers after editing but a couple of weeks ago I just went over the spelling mistakes and editing issues orally. I told him we would pick out a few of his papers when we completed the book and work on editing skills since we would have about nine weeks to fill. He actually does a better job on his papers now that he knows he will not have to rewrite it after discussing it with me! I think he is slowly starting to like writing…but I’m not going to mention it to him.
If anyone is interested I will be starting a new weekly blog series on making healthier lifestyle choices and weight loss. I’ll be sharing my ups and downs and a monthly weigh in. These posts will be on Tuesdays. I had tried to do them on the weekends in the past but my weekends are just too busy and I’ve let it slide (sorry for letting you down Claire). I also have a book that I will be going through written by one of my dear friends in the blogging world…Ellie at New Creations Ministries. Her book is called Life’s Too Short to Eat Bad Cheese..:Nutritional and Life Lessons God Teaches Us” . I think this weekly commitment will help me to stay focused. I’ve lost two sizes (from size 18 to a 14) since starting this journey and I am afraid I am starting to loose my momentum. On Tuesday I will share with you my anti-inflammatory smoothie that I drink most mornings and has made a big difference in how I feel.